a hole is a good thing?
I’m not feeling good at the moment and i don’t know why.
Could be the bad weather.
Could be that I’m just tired
Could be that i miss the good days.
Whatever. Life goes on it’s not gonna be rose colored all year long.
I’m tired from work. Between barbich that’s all angry at least twice a week or guillaume that doesn’t stop making a scene. Or both cause most of the time it’s tied together.
I’m feeling good being alone for the moment. I have no longer that need of gaving attention from boys anymore. But the problem is i don’t have any "goal" anymore. I don’t get motivated from going to clubs, i don’t get motivated from talking to people (which speaks a lot knowing myself, like the highlight of my day is talking to people), i basically have no reason to look forward to something anymore and that sucks. I don’t even get horny anymore like sex is not interesting at all anymore. Even by watching porn it doesn’t turn me on. Am i turning asexual? Could be, but i feel this blank and i don’t feel like i need to change that i feel so much liberated from all the muahy gushy feeling from a boy who is mot responding or a boy who does not treat me right or wanting to have sex but then i would have to add the number on my sleep list
I guess a hole is a good thinj after all i don’t have the need to have all of that burden.
Could be the bad weather.
Could be that I’m just tired
Could be that i miss the good days.
Whatever. Life goes on it’s not gonna be rose colored all year long.
I’m tired from work. Between barbich that’s all angry at least twice a week or guillaume that doesn’t stop making a scene. Or both cause most of the time it’s tied together.
I’m feeling good being alone for the moment. I have no longer that need of gaving attention from boys anymore. But the problem is i don’t have any "goal" anymore. I don’t get motivated from going to clubs, i don’t get motivated from talking to people (which speaks a lot knowing myself, like the highlight of my day is talking to people), i basically have no reason to look forward to something anymore and that sucks. I don’t even get horny anymore like sex is not interesting at all anymore. Even by watching porn it doesn’t turn me on. Am i turning asexual? Could be, but i feel this blank and i don’t feel like i need to change that i feel so much liberated from all the muahy gushy feeling from a boy who is mot responding or a boy who does not treat me right or wanting to have sex but then i would have to add the number on my sleep list
I guess a hole is a good thinj after all i don’t have the need to have all of that burden.
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