21
I’m oficially 21. Legal legal age. Like i can legally consume alcohol in almost every country (i think) , aaaand also legally go to jail on full time. Better not make any dumb decisions huh?
Speaking of dumb decisions, during my 21 years of living, i’ve made loads, but the most important thing is i’ve made even more good decisions.i’m pretty happy with my life. Surrounded by people who loves me. My friends and family. Yea yea i do wish i got a lover but hey, life’s pretty damn good to me.
So, letter to myself from myself:
Dear 15 years old depressed Feren, i know you think your life is going nowhere, you were just an ugly fat ass kid who’s barely coping with all the insults from your family and classmates, but listen to your 21 years old you, one day you’ll find your confident effortlessly, one day you’ll find that loving yourself and your body will give you the happiest days in your life. One day you’ll feel like you’re that bomb ass girl with the smokin’ body despite the imperfections that you still have.
Dear 17 years old Feren, you may think that your dreams are way to far to reach, studying abroad is just a dream you had at night and not by day, but hey, you persevere! You stick to your goals, praying days and night and look what you’ve got me to? FRANCE! Your days of crying until you fell asleep thinking about your future is not going down the drain! The 21 years old Feren now is living the dream in France. You did it girl!
Dear broken hearted 20 years old Feren, i know you feel like it’s unfair being treated like shit by the boys, and the 21 years old Feren might be 99% fine by that by now but i know it’s not the whole of the percentage, and i know it’s not good enough. We need to be fully okay. But to the liveless broken hearted Feren who wakes up, cry, living like a hallow zombie, then cry back to sleep again, you’ll get better. And know that the people who stays during your roughest days are the ones worth keeping. And no, you don’t hate yourself for falling for the wrong guy, this will just make you tougher.
Dear future Feren. Let’s make an agreement. One, you have to be 100–, no, 1000% fine by then. Don’t let any boys get into your confidence, you don’t need no boys to tell you you’re awesome because you always knew you are. Two, you still have your dreams and goals, you HAVE to reach it. Crawl from the bottom to get to the top if you need to. WE will make it. Three, don’t make any stupid decisions, okay okay we both know that this one we won’t be able to keep, but promise me this, never regret those mistakes like the 21 years old feren never have regrets. Four, you have to stay as confident as i am now no matter how many shits the world has to say about you. You know you’re beautiful and awesome as ever. Keep that self loving girl and spread that confidence to people who’s struggling to love themselves. Five, last but the most important one, keep being that cheerful Feren that you are. Keep smiling and laughing even if your laugh is annoying. I want future feren be as happy as all the past Feren has ever been, and even more.
Lastly, i would like to state how grateful and blessed i am for everyone who’s there for me on my shittiest and happiest days. I am blessed more than i can say.
Speaking of dumb decisions, during my 21 years of living, i’ve made loads, but the most important thing is i’ve made even more good decisions.i’m pretty happy with my life. Surrounded by people who loves me. My friends and family. Yea yea i do wish i got a lover but hey, life’s pretty damn good to me.
So, letter to myself from myself:
Dear 15 years old depressed Feren, i know you think your life is going nowhere, you were just an ugly fat ass kid who’s barely coping with all the insults from your family and classmates, but listen to your 21 years old you, one day you’ll find your confident effortlessly, one day you’ll find that loving yourself and your body will give you the happiest days in your life. One day you’ll feel like you’re that bomb ass girl with the smokin’ body despite the imperfections that you still have.
Dear 17 years old Feren, you may think that your dreams are way to far to reach, studying abroad is just a dream you had at night and not by day, but hey, you persevere! You stick to your goals, praying days and night and look what you’ve got me to? FRANCE! Your days of crying until you fell asleep thinking about your future is not going down the drain! The 21 years old Feren now is living the dream in France. You did it girl!
Dear broken hearted 20 years old Feren, i know you feel like it’s unfair being treated like shit by the boys, and the 21 years old Feren might be 99% fine by that by now but i know it’s not the whole of the percentage, and i know it’s not good enough. We need to be fully okay. But to the liveless broken hearted Feren who wakes up, cry, living like a hallow zombie, then cry back to sleep again, you’ll get better. And know that the people who stays during your roughest days are the ones worth keeping. And no, you don’t hate yourself for falling for the wrong guy, this will just make you tougher.
Dear future Feren. Let’s make an agreement. One, you have to be 100–, no, 1000% fine by then. Don’t let any boys get into your confidence, you don’t need no boys to tell you you’re awesome because you always knew you are. Two, you still have your dreams and goals, you HAVE to reach it. Crawl from the bottom to get to the top if you need to. WE will make it. Three, don’t make any stupid decisions, okay okay we both know that this one we won’t be able to keep, but promise me this, never regret those mistakes like the 21 years old feren never have regrets. Four, you have to stay as confident as i am now no matter how many shits the world has to say about you. You know you’re beautiful and awesome as ever. Keep that self loving girl and spread that confidence to people who’s struggling to love themselves. Five, last but the most important one, keep being that cheerful Feren that you are. Keep smiling and laughing even if your laugh is annoying. I want future feren be as happy as all the past Feren has ever been, and even more.
Lastly, i would like to state how grateful and blessed i am for everyone who’s there for me on my shittiest and happiest days. I am blessed more than i can say.
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